Our love, it blossomed in the spring with the meeting of our eyes; like the sun and the rain you shone a light and washed away everything that had covered this hidden love that would’ve otherwise gone on buried away in disguise. As the roots of our love began to strengthen, holding us in place, everything heated up as the seasons began to change.
When summer came around our love became stronger. As every beautiful piece of nature displayed its exquisite colours, we embraced each sunny day, sipping on champagne, and spent our time walking on the beach when it got late. When the stars took to the sky, it was only you and I, we got lost in what seemed like a world filled with intimacy and all the little things that make you want to believe in true love and destiny. We focused solely on each other then slowly our love seemed to fade. The things we used to do began to slip away as the seasons started to change.
When summer turned to fall, it wasn’t only the temperature that fell as the leaves fell off the trees spiraling down landing on the cold, hard ground. Along with this came distance between us, my heart began to fall, hurtling towards the ground,we didn’t connect anymore, you weren’t there to catch my fall, we still talked…well barely at all. The colour in your face began to fade, your smile didn’t shine as bright as it used to. As the sun started to leave earlier each day so did our time together. An hour here, an hour there, it didn’t take long for it to feel like neither of us still cared. Then all the leaves had finally fell, with it our love was a crumbling story that we didn’t want to tell. The ground began to freeze, and with it so did the happy memories of us inside my head. By doing this I could at least try and pretend that you and I were fine. Then winter rolled in and with it came an inevitable end.
When winter hit, everything froze. With the dying grass, the ghost of our once strong love rose from the white, snow covered ground. As it passed through my body I got a chill, the rush of the memories tore me down. It ripped me apart, seeing us happy together because now I know the reality of what at the time was our future. I never would’ve guessed that this would be the end for us, I thought that our love was meant to last forever. My love for you is now buried beneath all the cold, empty-hearted texts that I receive once or twice every couple days. You say “Hey” and I try and force a grin and reply “Hi” but after that the conversation always seems to die. The love that we had changed just as quick as the seasons. Once winter came, it devoured whatever love that remained. It took from me the happiness that I had known for so long. I now sit here sipping my hot chocolate trying to forget about the pain that winter brings.
We always talk
about going back
and changing things
that we now regret.
But even now,
I love you and
I will always choose you.
Even if it means,
heartache every now and then,
I will take the pain
of a few terrible days
if it means I get to
hold your heart in my hands
and cherish your love
for as long as it lasts.
Even if I could go back now,
to the day where we first met,
I would still play it all the same
because I’ll choose you
every god damned day.
Love is a complicated painful endeavor.
Many of us invest everything that we have
to hold what is dearest and prized close.
Sometimes so close that in fact we end up smothering it
and evidently pushing it away.
Those of us who are no longer able to fully invest,
have only faced the hurt that love brings.
The passionate kisses, the romantic antics, all of the happy times
seem to precede the painful words and actions that love brings.
No matter how happy we may be,
true love isn’t perfect
and does in fact bring pain and sorrow just like a rainy day.
My phone is really starting to piss me off :(